See U (Evermore)

[I played this for my uncle and he said he felt every single word…
Nigga, me too hahaha]
I, 
I never wanna see you
again, again
I, 
I never wanna see you
Evermore
I, 
I never wanna see you
again
See, you see
You see, you see
You see, you
See you again
See you again

[Evermore is a reference to Nevermore for Edgar Allan Poe’s The Raven]

Had my heart stop when you leave
baby if it’s not what you needed huh
take a step back let it breathe
fo’ we fall back like the season huh [Fall back as in let things end, and Fall is a season]
tell me if it’s not what you need
why you blowing up for no reason huh
i can only love what i see—
how you [expect] me to mind read ya huh?

[I was left stunned, my relationship ended so suddenly. It wasn’t until things were over that I was given a laundry list of the problems she’d had. She convinced me I was a Monster; but I’m like Why didn’t you tell me until now you were having these problems? I’m always asking you to communicate with me, how am I responsible for not fixing what I didn’t know was broken?]

i don’t want ya but i need ya honey
bed too big—like ya head
need your body in the space
curled up with your knees around me
head buried deep in my chest cuz i made you feel safe
or more accurately we was both an escape
you a casper to me
plasma, a demon
the cracks in the screen
bring the scene to a play

[It was so lonely after things ended. It’s still a little lonely. I say “You a Casper to me. Plasma, a demon…” as in what we had is dead. You’re dead to me. A ghost or a demon.
The cracks in the screen (from the pressure of the truth coming out) bring the scene to a play like when people call “Scene!” to mark the end of a take. There’s no coming back from this]

i’m a bastard i’m evil
i guess we did all of that shit for no reason
all that time laying in sheets
pillow talking and spilling out our deepest secrets
i told you i wasn’t just looking for exits
but i guess you couldn’t believe it
told you it’s deeper than sex
intimate
i wanna see where it gets me
letting you into my head my biggest regret

[I’m saying though, how do we go through that experience together and you think I’m fucking faking it? Or that the relationship was all about sex? If it was all about sex I would’ve left. I stayed because I cared about making things work with you. You the one searching for evidence I’m tryna leave. Goofy.]

Baby i know i made mistakes, but believe that I had your needs in mind
baby i know i made mistakes, but i don’t appreciate the hate
Baby i know i made mistakes, but believe that I had your needs in mind
baby i know i made mistakes, but i don’t appreciate the hate

[I can take responsibility for what I did wrong. I got proof that I’m working on it in the form of healthier relationships now. Yes, I fucked up sometimes. But damn…]

I, 
I never wanna see you
again, again
I, 
I never wanna see you
Evermore
I, 
I never wanna see you
again
See, you see
You see, you see
You see, you
See you again
See you again