Desiderata

i put my head down and i stacked up my riches

i can’t keep on giving my soul to these bitches

i walked through the valley of death 

through the trenches

I realized too late that it ain’t my decision

i put my head down and i stacked up my riches

i can’t keep on giving my soul to these bitches

i walked through the valley of death 

through the trenches

I realized too late that it ain’t my decision

the youth need inspiring

they supplement

needing some vitamins

[I’m a teacher, so this is referring to their supplementary learning material and their general well-being]

no leader 

ain’t nobody guidin em

they manager relishin firin em

they growin like weeds tho

in spite of it

thank god that 

they mommas put fight in em

[The love for the momma is strong outchea. They raised some firecrackers fr]

them kids can’t let no one inside man

they drunk on the poison of pride man

[It’s hard to connect when vulnerability has been painted as weak or uncool]

they holdin too tight to they life if

they just saw another one die then 

they puttin they cups to the sky man

they too young and drunk for the drive man

[Every week someone close to them dies. That’s so heavy for anybody.]

none of they loved ones in sight and

the nightmares keep comin at night man

i pray the lord tell me what I can

perform to get all of them by man.

[Man, I’m just one guy that makes music. The causes of the symptoms we’re seeing now run so deep. I’m hoping my little bit makes a difference somewhere]

i put my head down and i stacked up my riches

i can’t keep on giving my soul to these bitches

i walked through the valley of death 

through the trenches

I realized too late that it ain’t my decision

lord answered all my prayers

how could I keep my head down

i was living on the edge

can’t member what had me so scared now

lord answered all my prayers

how could I keep my head down

i was living on the edge

can’t member what had me so scared now

[The bible was actual really comforting when I was at my lower points. I read it now and then]

tolerance

experience boosting my tolerance 

i thought it was cool

to be hollerin

at each of the shorties that’s walkin in

i’m grown up and know i was wilin then

it’s providence keepin me smilin when

head over heels

only breathing water 

hidden deep inside

all the focus that I needed

i’m sayin

i put my head down and i stacked up my riches

i can’t keep on giving my soul to these bitches

i walked through the valley of death 

through the trenches

I realized too late that it ain’t my decision

i put my head down and i stacked up my riches

i can’t keep on giving my soul to these bitches

i walked through the valley of death 

through the trenches

I realized too late that it ain’t my decision

the desiderata of the chosen children

pill potions pain unequal mixing

[desiderata means “things desired” I’m saying they want the pills, potions, and pain. Or even that in chasing their desiderata (status, wealth, power) there are these false intermediaries in pills and potions which help soothe the pain of not having what you want.]

growin faster than the bullet 

speeding out the desert eagle

giving wings to creatures that ain’t never need em 

[These kids live fast, man. They really think they’re grown up and it’s wild because…some of them are?]

visitation or they never see em

that’ll never change 

while it’s misconceiving

all the attitude to conceal the reason

they never feel safe

[This is the “drunk on the poison of pride” theme again. They not really mad at YOU, it’s just the redirection of direction-less anger.]

that’s why i

i put my head down and i stacked up my riches

i can’t keep on giving my soul to these bitches

i walked through the valley of death 

through the trenches

I realized too late that it ain’t my decision

i put my head down and i stacked up my riches

i can’t keep on giving my soul to these bitches

i walked through the valley of death 

through the trenches

I realized too late that it ain’t my decision